It's been a while

Well here I am, it's certainly been a while.............

More recently I finally feel good like I am at peace with myself like I have been lost. I am enjoying my life. I enjoy going to work in the mornings and I love to come back to my flat of an evening and make dinner and eat and gossip about the day with my flatmates.

I spent a week in Barbados in July. A friend of mine has family there and was out there for a few weeks and invited me out, I went out for a week. It was a relaxed amazing week where I took the time to chill which I can honestly say I haven't done in a while. It gave me the opportunity to address my worries and concerns and since then I feel I have been much more relaxed.

I first began to blog after losing my mum I wanted to continue what she had, I really struggled to write for a while and worried it wasn't the same. Then I realised I was worrying too much. It is impossible to carry on what my mum did I am not her, I am younger and live a different type of lifestyle. I finally came to terms with the fact that what I write can be different and isn't wrong there are no rules!! So here comes me, writing what i want to write when I want without a worry!

You will see over the next few days I may appear leaving comments again...it's been a long time but Lydia is back

I am sharing a few of my pictures from Barbados..........enjoy

I always say I am coming back.........I will be, sometimes I just do not have the concentration to write!

Very unlike me! I don't know why!

I like to pop by to say I do intend to be back at some point and just to let you know all is well!

soon!!!!!!

I am coming back!

Originally I set uo my blog to help me feel close to my mum but I think I put too much pressure on myself and struggled greatly with it!

Time away and much less time on the net had helped me greatly and I am feeling a lot more like I used to slowly.

So with that I am starting over again in the next few days!

I also updated my picture to a more recent me! for the new me in celebration of my return!

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This is just a quick note,

I'm still here just something in me isn't let me concentrate and write at the moment!

I'm loving being in my new flat with my girls and just taking a break from sitting at the computer in the evenings!

I'll be back soon though, it just struck me that I should write here
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finally got my internet back!

Finally I have internet again! I did feel like I'd lost part of my life! Then the other day my mobile broke I did laugh how lost I felt with no mobile or internet or laptop!! My laptop is sick the screen is not working it has gone off to the repair people :) I have hijacked my bro's for a little while and taken to my flat! Which I have a few pics to show.

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The past two weeks have been absolutely manic I have been on Jury Service so have been at court everyday, it's been really frustrating as there is a lot of sitting around and waiting and all the time my mind was thinking 'I'm sure I could be getting on with other things at my new flat or buying things for Christmas! In the midst of the Jury Service I had my work Christmas party which I've shared a few photo's from below.

I always tease one of my closest friends T that she is a big poser (likewise I'll admit I am too!) however we asked her to take the picture and we all posed as she does with hand on hip!

The party was a sit down dinner followed by dancing so here I am with work with my dinner

Above are the lovely ladies I work with, this pic caused some giggles as only two of us brought their wine to the pic too!

Before the party we had a girly get together and got ready at my friend T's place this was me ready to go!

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I am off to finish my jury service this afternoon, then tomorrow I am back to work for a day then off to my Dad on Saturday for eight days. I can't wait to be with him. As Christmas draws closer I must admit I'm losing a bit of my excitement about it and becoming edgy at the thought that it will be difficult. But with my Dad, Brother and Grandma altogether I'm sure we'll get by and as I'm cooking the Christmas dinner Daisy style so she'll be there with me all along!

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The above picture is my bedroom in my new flat. Not got my individual touches put to it yet though! Jury Service has given me a lack of time to do so! But I plan to strip the cupboards and stain them a more 'me' colour the opposite side has a high long window along the wall!

Our kitchen
Our Lounge/Dining Room, on the other side of the room we have a fireplace and another large red sofa.

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I am not sure if I will be back here before Christmas as I feel once I get back home I'll be dashing off into Carlisle on last minute runs to shops and visiting friends! so I will say here to you all that I wish you all a Merry Christmas! I hope you all have a peaceful and enjoyable time whatever you may be doing.

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moved in

All moved in just the unpacking and organising to do! my friends I'm moving in with have no Internet connection so I'm transferring mine but should take a few days just waiting for my bro to leave old place before I do so.

Once is transferred I'll show pics of the inside of my new place. I'm just at the Internet cafe now checking emails! So just a quick note

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All change

Firstly I would like to say I hope everyone who celebrates Thanksgiving had a lovely Thanksgiving.

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I also would like to thank you all so much for your kind words on my mums birthday :)

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To begin in this post I'd like to introduce you to someone.........meet....Daniel my big brother as he managed to stay away from my other pics!.

Here he is pretending to look mean his 'photo face'
Here he is again on one of his many travels. Daniel has been all over Europe and on occasions sometimes out of Europe following the England football team, an avid football fan!

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Daniel is tall, six feet in fact much taller than my mum and dad! sometimes he takes advantage of this pretends to be a mean menacing older brother when needed! Inside he's a big softie!

When I was first 18 and Daniel and I still lived in Carlisle, before we moved out to the village and I started going out to bars and nightclubs, if I ever saw Daniel out he would always come and chat to me and pull his menacing face and he would say 'I am letting people know not to mess with you'. All my friends used to say I wish I had an older brother like that looking out for me!

Soon we are about to come to end of an era, Daniel and I have shared a flat in London for three years! This was perfect when I first came down here, I knew London but it was nice to have that little bit of familiarity and 'protection'. My mum and Dad also liked that I wasn't alone when I was first in London. But here we are three years later and we are moving out. Daniels work has relocated to a different area of London hence he is going to move closer. I am going to an area of London called Ealing. Ealing is a lovely area, shopping centres, bars, restaurants and a few lovely green open spaces. My new flat can be seen below.

It is just off a beautiful tree lined street all with Tudor style buildings. I am moving into a flat with two friends Claire and Emma. I have chosen very carefully which friends I would and would not live with. Mistakes can be made in flat mate choices that can ruin friendships! Bu this seems like a good choice and I'm looking forward to being in the girly flat! It has three really spacious bedrooms and a really spacious lounge and kitchen. The room I have chosen couldn't be more perfect for me, along one side it has built in wardrobes all along a whole wall in a beautiful green wood. Plenty of storage my clothes shopping addiction! I am busy planning the layout of my new room and looking at shelving units that I want. Next weekend I am going to pack up my flat so I'm currently on cardboard box hunt! Then the following weekend all being well I should be into my new place!

Although I am ecstatic to have this lovely flat and so excited to move to a new area it has been a hassle! I have lost count of how many flats we've been to view in the evenings after work in the last few evenings! Finally we found the right one!

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I seriously cannot believe Christmas is almost upon us again! Although it will b a difficult one for us I am looking forward to spending the time together which will make the difficult times of it easier. I am currently giving my family lots to laugh about with Christmas dinner this year, I have gone into organisation mode of my own accord planning how we will do dinner and when I will go shopping for what foods and Christmas items on what day in the run up to Christmas. My Dad finds my plans hilarious he said I am most definitely my mothers daughter! I know if she could see my organising lists and planning she'd definitely be proud!

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